Hard Times

I see a new girl. She isn’t so pretty but she is nice. We don’t speak too much. I don’t have many things to say so as she. I don’t know why I think this relation will work but it seems I find someone who cares about me. She argues with me most of the time. But I like that. That moves things inside me. That gives me a reason to live. That gives my life a very good taste. It doesn’t matter if we have the same ideas or hobbies but talking itself is great. I saw her four times until now and I hope every thing is going OK.

It is very hard to find something interested or funny to say. I try to think before saying anything but that leads to long silence. I talked about my career and her career then I talked about the weather then I talked about…… I think that is it. We didn’t talk too much as I have mentioned.

My sister told me to express my feeling to her but I don’t feel like love but I think she is a nice person. Again she told me to tell her that I find her nice. She thinks that girls like talking about feelings. I don’t have the courage to tell any one I like you or I like talking to you. I will wait some while before going any further on that relationship. I don’t have any experience.

I’ll see her next Friday and I hope I won’t blow every thing up. Wish me good luck!